Keep shining. The world is in need of more lights.
It is painful,
But you are not falling apart,
You will be more beautiful with new cleavers and capacity.
You have no right to dim your light. You cannot move with unpolished shoes and rapper clothes. You have no right to rapped up your persona in a small bundle. Even, you plan to do so then I will not permit you.
Your greatest responsibility is to use potentiality at the optimum level. You do not have any option except shin in the dark night of events.
Aware your strength,
Polish your skills
Iron your character.
None is going to nurture your personality, except you.